Miserable.........

Is it what I see is diff from others?

Is it what I think is diff form others?

Is it what I do is diff from others as well?

I'm so miserable, confused and starting to feel like....it's such an ironical for me....

what I have now, felt like it's not belong to me.

What I'm seeing now, is not what I need...

What's within my ability now, I do not knowledge about it..

What I am wishing now, is to unite my mind, soul and react over it. I seems lost. I do not know what's ahead for me. I do not know how to react and make use of all the abilities that I have. Bcoz' I can't even knowledge what my ability is.

谓：色就是空，空就是色 ； 万物皆是空。

Wish that I could stand tough and find back the lost me.