Intern in Penang

Haha. Feel so happy that I got to go for my industrial training with friends. It's really fun. That's way better than the first training during my diploma. :)

Anyway, I MISS U, MY PIGGY PRINCE. I HOPE U'RE HERE WITH ME NOW. But anyway, that's ok. :) it's time to be independent. I'll listen to u and be happy. I'll come back with pride. *.*
Hehe...

Well, I reached Penang on Saturday together with Chee Kong (the hard-working driver..Xin Ku Ni le...), and Yeet Mei, my current roommate (the sha da jie~).

After that, we met up with yew leong and his fren, wei wei. haha. then, we straight went to the condo to meet the agent. Well, we was late for an hour due to the thaipussam plus, we went to tesco and that caused us late. XP haha.

Hmm..I was pretty happy that they like the place so much as that proved that my effort is not a waste. :) Hehe.

Raymond and Fann arrived on Sunday and then we went to the beach and have fun! haha. Well..it's really really fun!! :) Took some pictures while playing on the beach also. Very enjoy and fun. :D Gonna post it here.

However, when the moment we walked in the beach at Golden Sand Hotel, so many ppl came towards us and sell their "product"(the sea games). Haha. They providing horse-riding too. LOVE IT! :D hehe. Gonna try it out. But..I need to wait for someone important to come 1st. ;)

Anyway, I wish you\re here reading my blog, my honey darling. Gonna post a picture here and hope you can feel my love towards u. Coz I really miss u oo... ;D

Hmm..I hope my frens are reading this also and check out how fine I am now and I really appreciate the frens whom staying together now. ^^

At the Beach~ Nice Shoot by Yeet Mei. :)

David, Ashton, Yeet Mei and I.

*Peace*

On the way to breakfast and the food is really nice and cheap here le. Thanks to Wei Ge Ge. ;)

Haha..Our messy Room. XP

*Dedicated to my Piggy Prince* :)

Guess what am i doing. :D

*DENG DENG DENG DENG!!!*
*I LOVE U, WEN HAO* :) Muarks!

The Beach Boy fm India. ;)
(Kept promoting package to us le~~ haha)

(Enjoy life at Penang Home)

*The End*

MY LIFE * MY WAY???

Hmm...nope! it's not gonna be that way. I mean..my life....

I am looking down at myself now. I really dunno what happened. Maybe, I know..but...duno how to get back the lost me.

Anyway, today was an awful day to me. I know that am gonna fail that subject as I have insufficient time to complete the whole paper, plus, I only did half of the marks. If I passed, I'm gonna be superb as it means that all the answers are correct. I think I'm gonna be so lucky though.

One thing, if I failed, nvm. At least I've prepared for it since after the exam. I know how bad I did. But, the big deal was....I couldn't wake up in the morning and my bf has been calling me the whole one and a half hour just to wake me up because, imagine how awful when my phone was shutted down and that, my alarms were not ring yet I couldn't received his calls within that period!!! SHIT!!! Fortunately, he was smart that he called my cousin and asked her to wake me up. I must really really thank my lovely one, the "angel"; luckily he called, really! Otherwise, am gonna skipped the exam and repeat the subject again.

However, although I feel thankful to him, but...I am really really guilty that he couldn't be well-focused on his revision. Haihz.....I am really really SORRY!!! He told me that he did it badly then. Haihz........So sad that this kind of things happened on the day of my examination. How awful and stupid I AM!!! Haihz.....

After further advance diploma...my heart never feel better because it really gets me down. I am lost and sad because of the negative forces and environment. I really miss u guys, ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS....my H10...and all my best friends whom I know since my diploma.

Well...although this is a really awful day to me but at least, my sister adds a little sweets within my sad day. She encourages me alot alot and alot! Last time, I used to think that I shouldn't have tell my hardship to my sis as this is my own matter, but..although I seldom talk abt myself, but she can understand me. Yeah! I am stupid! But, at least, I'm the best in her heart. I was teary though. At least, she can see myself in the darkness. At least, I feel better and comfort when she encourages me. Just....maybe I am too depress now...

I do think about giving up...As...It's too hard for me, I think...I know I can do it, but...the supports and courages are now getting lost...where are all my friends....family......and the energetic soul of mine...............? How can I get it back all? Can I?

I just miss.....my own home. The very beginning of my life.....although a little bitter but it's sweet.

Papa.......Mama......Kaka......Me......................................

Miserable.........

Is it what I see is diff from others?

Is it what I think is diff form others?

Is it what I do is diff from others as well?

I'm so miserable, confused and starting to feel like....it's such an ironical for me....

what I have now, felt like it's not belong to me.

What I'm seeing now, is not what I need...

What's within my ability now, I do not knowledge about it..

What I am wishing now, is to unite my mind, soul and react over it. I seems lost. I do not know what's ahead for me. I do not know how to react and make use of all the abilities that I have. Bcoz' I can't even knowledge what my ability is.

谓：色就是空，空就是色 ； 万物皆是空。

Wish that I could stand tough and find back the lost me.

我什么都不懂。。。

最近真的不懂做什么，重视无精打采，没心读书。。
最重要的是，我的心里很挣扎。。挣扎了很多很多东西。。我真的真的很乱。

我的想法，我的脑子，最近真的很乱，而且还是很混乱的那种。我真的想了很多不该想的东西，行了很多不开心的事情。。

哎。。我就来要崩溃了！最近很有罪恶感。我真的很为难。

不懂啊！气死啦！要死啦！！！>.<

佛法 Buddhist's Knowlege

Just open a new blog..Please support me..and the most important thing is I hope that all of u will get some knowledge that a Buddhist should have.

For those of my friend who is not a Buddhist, you can at least learn something if u read that blog..more understanding what Buddhism is all about. :)

The link is just under My Blog List or here it is, www.lotusinyourheart.blogspot.com..you can link it if u like it.

Thnx ya~

生日真的很快乐。 ：）

I dunno how to explain..the feelings....

is happy!

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(17/07/2009 ; Friday)

Hmm..remember today, all my coursemates were celebrating Freddrick and My Birthday together..Wao! They kinda surprise me but...I can guess though..haha..coz they were cheating on me..There are 3 things that made me felt more suspicious in them..Haha.

1. Saying dat Ms Vivienne very angry abt me coz i never attend to her class, by Si Bee & Jared. (Actually I got cheated by Ryan..haha..and I was helping him to buy ingredients for his Beach Party together with Sam and Kenneth/Michael, that's y I can't make it to the lecture.)
   
2. But then, Raymond told me dat Ms Vivienne wanted me to go to the lecture hall quickly coz wanna see me to discuss abt the Psrtnership Theme Party proposal..haha..and he kept asking me where am I? Why I never come for the lecture...? :p
3. Then, after I got cheated and frightened by Lovely Frens, Some one who's very close with Me, suddenly just msg me to tell me Happy Birthday..hehe.

Hmm..so funny..hmm..after I got into the lecture hall..the cake was ready and they all sang a birthday song for me, I thought..mana tau, Freddrick's birthday was 2days ealier than mine too..so they celebrate for us together lor..haha. :)

But anyway, I am reli happy coz Ryan told me that Si Bee, Raymond and other coursemates actually forward msg to other ppl and asked to celebrate our birthday..haha..I felt soo touched. :)
Thnx for all the surpsrises and giving me such a special memory to us. :D

~P/s: today is my sis's bday too..wish her all the best and I hope that she can always be happy and cheer up. :) I Love U, My Dear Sis..and Happy Birthday..Sorry dat I can celebrate with U, but I'll make sure that I'll celebrate with U another day ya~.

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(20/07/2009 ; Monday)
Oooo0oohH..finally, it came to my Birthday! kekeke..Hmm..very happy and feel so excited today because this is gonna be the first Birthday that I celebrate outside without my family members. :p

Anyway, hmm..this is a very special Birthday to me. :)

Firstly, Wei Keong dated me for lunch..however, end up went to Sg. Wang to look for sth dat I need together with Raymond, coz' he wanna do some survey over there. Then, Pui San came to Sg. Wang purposely just to look for me and she gave me a piece of choco cake and gift. :)

Well..too rush for the day and I promised that my Darling that I'll be in his home before certain time..hmm..sorry Wei Keong that i couldn't make it to have lunch with u.. :p Forgive..and I know for sure, U will! Keke..

Hmm..but u reli surprise me ya..haha..came out with the present suddenly..hmm..Although I told U that I dun reli like that kind of gift..but dunno why, when I touched it and Look at it, I feel so Warm. :) So, I'll start to Love this kind of gift and will appreciate it. :D coz' U're my Best Friend ma! Haha..but I din expect that U'll get a car to drive me for lunch wor.. :p
(I really felt touched of ur present, especially the meaningful card. :) dun worry, We'll be the best fren to each other, even in the future geh. :D )

Then, after I reached My Darling's home, hmm..what I can't imagine is...., Ah Heng COOK??? Haha..hmm..never tried before seriously..and I told Ah He gonna cook geh, mana tau just helping u up only? Hmm..but anyway, haha! The dishes came out with a good presentation and it look delicious..haha..hmm..but it's true, I like it, although the prawn's source is a bit spicy, but I reli like it. :)

What I like the most is.....My Darling cooked me my favourite soup!! Haha..So Nice! I really like it la..!! Hmm..Thnx for preparing all these for me, My Lovely Darling..and I'm willing to drink your soups for the future though. *,*

My Dearest Darling, Thnx for the dinner (as to your lovely housemates too), plus the Birthday Cake, and the Best present too! :D

I know U've been tired for the whole day, never sleep well, woke up early and some more cook soup and dish for me once u came back..I Love U So Much! Thnx for the sacrifices. :)

Anyway, I reli like the present, and it's very meaningful too..I really really Love it. :)
MuarksSsSSsssssS!

Lastly, Minli..I like your present very much too..thnx for being so observant and understanding abt what I need yet things that I never thought of. :D I'll use it and slowly become leng leng geh. :D

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(22/07/2009 ; Tuesday)

Hmm..anyway, today, I reli feel a bit moody..Even though I got a new laptop fm my cousin and uncle, and my family sang me a bday song with cake but bcoz of sth happened and I really dunno what to do..

hmm..sorry..sorry to the both of u..You both are my VIP le..that's y I din noe wat to do..Please forgive me if I say anything wrong, that's my mistakes, baby; I'm so sorry that I've made u upset, my dear.

Both of u..., I'm sorry..I reli have no idea of how wat shall I say and wat shall I do to make u both feel better. I'm reli....... :( I dunno!

Anyway, I reli hope that both of won't be angry of me anymore k..coz' I know u both are very sad..I'm so sorry..but I LOVE U BOTH!

Hope things can be solve as soon as possible.

P/s: Anyway, hahaha..I got a new laptop for my bday present le..keke..so good..feel so happy that I have my own one..Thnx ya, cousin and uncle! :) I reli felt dat I'm one of the most happiness person in the world! Haha..no matter how hard is my life now or in the future, I'll stil tahan geh! Haha..Love those who Love me and Pamper ME. :)

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Once again, Thank You for All of U!!! :D

好朋友。。。

嗯。。

其实，我一直以来，真得不懂我在你的醒目中占有哪个位置的。

今天，你突然间给我个部落个网站，我。。真的很好奇，也很很想看看你会写些什么。。

最重要的是，你会否把你最近的情况给写下去。。

我，

真的真的。。

非常非常的。。。

很开心！！！

哈哈。。因为，我一直都不去问你可是又很想懂得答案。。

终于。。

在你的部落格哪儿找到了。。

你懂吗。。我很感触。。很感激。。很感慨。。也很感动。。。。

哈哈。。不懂现在该写什么好呢。。 :p

只想，你以后都能好好的照顾自己。。好好休息。。尤其是精神上的休息。。因为，身边会有很多人关心你，即为你心疼。 :)

我很想说，你也是我的好朋友！ :)

（其实，我很想懂咯。。什么是粉红知己？ 有我的份吗？？ 哈哈。。 :p ）